Summers Off? On discipline and hard work.

I can't really imagine taking the entire two months off, so I will be working a few days a week, at an old favourite, shoveling concrete.
I miss hard physical work, and working outside, and because the time frame is limited, if I don't like it, I can suck it up for a little while and just get it done.

I have learned a lot about myself lately. Not the least of this being that I love my job, which helps the students enjoy being there too. Sometimes it's stressful, and that's usually when I haven't planned enough. But it's good.

And Fernie is good too. It's incredible. I recently ran as a team of 4 competing in an ultra marathon, I only ran 10KM, but the vertical was pretty good. almost 700M of ascent and descent. Now, I didn't run up, I walked up, but I ran down. The craziest part is that we came 2nd place. 2nd! Somehow I got onto a team with elite runners. Check out www.trailrunner.ca for a look at the trail running scene. It's my cousin's digital magazine, and we were team Trail Running Canada. Anyways, that was crazy.

And the other day I got up early and went for a 9KM hike, hoping to be back before breakfast, but I got  a flat at Island Lake Lodge. That's another weird thing, I live 10KM from a legendary catskiing operation. We are still working the debt snowball (cf: Dave Ramsey for more info) so it will be a while, but they have a standby list, so I know I'll get to go skiing there one day.

The recreation opportunities here are endless, to the point that I still scarcely believe that I live here, and could stay forever. I took Zeke fishing today, no fish but lots of fun, and soon when the river clears up, we can fish in a world class, 'classified waters' trout river, that is a 5 minute walk from our house. Did I mention the hunting? I get to drive 15 minutes and be in a legitimate hunting spot. or closer if I want, really. It's just so weird.

It's been a year and I really can't believe that we get to live here and be here. It's basically what I have wanted my whole life, to live in a small town, where I can fish and hunt, be a music teacher, and have a family. Actually, Literally, living the dream.

And I still am ungrateful sometimes, wondering if there isn't some reason to apply to sub lists in the lower mainland where I could drive farther, pay more for housing, earn less, and have my recreation opportunities basically decimated, so that the little time I have with my family I would spend driving to and from shorter sessions of the same activities.
Did I mention zeke skis for free next year? at the ski hill, which is 5 minutes away? I guess getting to the lift is more like 15 minutes. After getting dressed and ready at the car. I know, totally not worth the inconvenience. (sarcasm-do we have a sarcasm font yet)

I think the essence of Christianity is gratitude, thanksgiving, and somedays even though I can recount the things that I am grateful for, I don't feel grateful, and usually that translates to not acting grateful, but acting entitled. I don't know why or how I have this attitude of entitlement, and it isn't pervasive or continuous, but when I feel it, I wonder why I am not repulsed by it. or if I am, how to change the way I feel. but then why is it all about how I feel?

I guess that's it, why do feelings dictate our actions? or my actions. I guess that's the thing with discipline. and Holiness. It's just lots of hand to plow, nose to stone.


Lil'M said...

It is the Enemy working on you. To weigh you down by wanting what you don't have. In this instance, fight the feelings with awareness and prayer. You have been given a gift and a situation in which that gift can be used and you can, in return, glorify God by your living with a full and joyous heart.
At least you have an idea of what a nightmare would await you if you "got what you wanted." And who knows what time may bring...
But totally understand where you're coming from ;)

Victoria said...

hm. we hope maybe to be in a place like that someday. exactly. like. that. ;)