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look at him! all giggles.



There's this great false assumption out there, or maybe in here, that people who share one or two things of significance in common, such as a belief or similar style of bike or preference in music, are much more similar than in reality.

I assume this about many people who are orthodox. I used to do it much more intensely than before, but I know I still do it.

I thought that of course everyone who was orthodox would at least try to be vegetarian, because eating meat, while not morally wrong, is unnecessary (for some) and it would be a step towards self discipline. I used to think that everyone wanted to fast hard, and that if we were all cranky at each other, we would understand because we were all fasting fairly intensely. I used to think that we should all be monks, or at least try to live like them, and that everyone thought this way, ie, wanted to live like the monks.

I used to think everyone who was orthodox was somewhat socialist. NOT communist, but socialist. but I find myself becoming more of a capitalist, in one sense. Here, in north america, there is so much food for poor people that we enable laziness and 'so-called' poverty. I have two jobs, my second job is pedalling a bicycle around with people on the back. I have a master's degree. If I had to work at Rotten Ronnie's to feed my family, I would. Thank God that is not too likely. when people really need help, great, let's love them fully, but so many people are just not working because they don't have too. but at the same time, come to my house tonight so I can give you some blackberry crumble (as long as there are still blackberries waiting to be picked across the street at the park) I want to share, and I want nothing in return, well, maybe a little company.

in any case, Z and I are going to the park to pick berries. see you this evening,



I am now a Finnish Citizen. Tervetuola!

Tim and Bethany are coming tomorrow. we have had lots of guests this month.
Since camp ended, we have hosted: AJ, Dan, James and Melanie, Kevin, Gabe, and Caroline.
I think that is all so far. Tim and Bethany are rounding out the month, which is great. we get to see them so rarely. they live in the philippines after all.
I have an interview for a job in Montreal. At least they tell me so, but je ne sais pas que j'ai plus que le langue q'il desire pour l'emplois. Et, aussi, je ne sais pas si nous desirons voyager pour trop longtemps et habites au Quebec ou a Montreal. mais, j'aime bien le Francais, et les francophonie, mais, il et un grand 'distance' de ici.
we'll see. My french is passable, but not good by any stretch of the imagination.
I don't like going to church much these days, I just go cause its the right thing to do. I mean, I don't know what else I would do. but it sure has lost its charm. no longer do I see it through rose colored glasses. this Bride of Christ we call the church has so many flaws, and I have really no way to fix them.
My friend from NYC was visiting, and he has an interesting perspective on church. In one sense, he has very strict views on how services should be done, but on the other hand, he was amazed at how strict we are about fasting, despite our renovationist approach to services. I kept on saying something about 'west coast'. but still, I think he can learn from us, and we him.
I miss smoking. It's pretty silly, but I do. I am now a life insured person, well, my policy is approved, and its a 'preferred smoker' policy, which is still silly. I mean, I get it, its a health risk, and its indulgence, and hedonistic. I don't deny it, it is pleasure seeking and bad for you. period.
but I like it.

which of course justifies it. like, the hookah session in Ottawa? Priceless memories.
q,jer,zeke z, and backgammon teacher. srsly.

anyways, now that I am an EU Citizen, I am going to see about working over in Europe, cause, honestly, why would we not go there, now that I am legally allowed to work all over the place. HOW COOL!
I want to go to Finland and learn about orthodoxy there, and maybe take more theology classes. and learn Finnish. and Russian. and French.


My summer class is almost done. I hope to go fishing again, we got 14 salmon, it was fantastic, and it made me wish I owned a boat. want to trade my car for your boat? done.



I think there are a few things that make a summer vacation good.
This summer, we had a good trip, and I know I am likely repeating myself, but I saw that there are thunderstorms in Montana, and storms really make an impression on me. I love bad weather.
I think there will be salmon fishing in the near future, so that is cool. I am definitely looking forward to that. I can't wait for my summer class to be over, it's at such an awkward time of day.
Lost is getting annoying, they really do just keep changing the plot JUST enough to keep people hooked, and to not ever resolve anything. I just want one more moment where hurley is handing out food. that was so nice. just a bit of resolution without tragedy mixed in.
and I am toying with the idea of doing an adventure race, anyone want to join me? I need someone who knows how to set ropes.



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It's my Dad's birthday today. I think he has done a good job, being a Father is a lot of work, and its complicated. I used to be ungrateful, but now I see that life is a lot more complex and hard to figure out than I used to think.
So hey Dad, thanks! I love you, God grant you many years!