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I don't have appropriate words to describe my astonishment with "come on feel the illinoise" sufjan stevens is consistently one of the most amazing songwriter/orchestrator/musicians I have ever come across. the orchestrations are not overbearing, yet they are lush and full. the musical context for the incredibly thoughtful, balanced approach to lyrics is an appropriate blend of form and content, such that the message is a seamless whole. I have only heard the first four or five tracks, and I am enamoured with this music to such a degree, I was not aware of its possibility. yes, I am over the top, but thats my middle name, right?


I will be hard pressed to shut up about this, happily, this discovery coincides with a live performance by said musical wunderkind.

Sorry nate dogg, I guess we are not doing the seattle show...maybe you could come to richards anyways? tickets are an isssue too I guess eh?

yeah, tessa, Des has wanted to do clothes for a while. work it so it works well for both you and he, and you will be in business. there is your tuition maybe? I mean, not right away of course.

okay, so now sufjan is singing about cancer with a slight lilt, and maybe I am biased, but I know the song is sad, and having a lilt does not imply irreverence I don't think. music is so contextual, its so hard. at the bottom of this post I will put my MA thesis proposal, in case anyone is interested, it may be boring, but I am so excited about school, and its about music and interpretation, so it may actually be relevant to your life, and when I publish my book you will want to read it and hype it, so I am going to start now.

I got to seattle this morning at about 1030, which was sweet, I left blaine at about 9, so it was just under 2 hours to get here. st. herman's taxi does well, but it made a weird noise when I got here.
Jessica is out for a run, so I may go to the bookstore, and trader joes, depending on how long she is gone for. bonnie, the dog here, is having a dream, and almost talking in her sleep.

I love life! its so amazing. I am almost done cutting grass, I had a great day at work with Dave V we churched it up.

yes, my days as a slash n dash man are coming to an end. no more squint-n-go, no more clutch cookouts, no more meal cal,

soon will be Dave Matthews band at the gorge, soon will be sufjan, soon will be camping, soon will be baptism, soon will be travelling, and today, there is peace and learning and growth, and a pretty girl who will come home sweaty after running. awesome. lesya, you are right.

oh, and for all you fans, the illinoise cd I am listening to has superman on it! yeah yeah!

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The truth of music is both interpretive and objective.

Polemical arguments that arise regarding the objectivity of a certain piece of music and its necessary interpretation are unnecessary. Many listeners, uneducated and academics alike, will listen to music and interpret it differently, depending not only on their historical context, but the context of the moment, because the nature of music is not only historical, empirical, and temporal, but it is immaterial, and therefore contains an element of mysticism. Instead of either/or rhetoric, we must come to a middle ground that includes all aspects of the experience that is music.

The Middle Road travels through;
a)the enlightenment project and its subsequent modernist assumptions
in the context of music theory pedagogy in the academy, (schencker and reductionist philosophy)
b) the duality of public/private truth in the
context of music criticism, referring to the value of verifiable facts vs. personally viable truth, or notation and interpretation.
c) the notion of festival and spectacle and the shift in composition and performance
practice in post renaissance music history, noting the shift from music as sacred work towards sacred text becoming a form of entertainment, the oxymoron of a 'concert mass'.

The two areas of study will be Music and philosophy, with historical theology making a guest appearance.


when you hear that steeple bell...

tom waits has some great lines. dang.

I have had the opportunity to talk about church so much lately, its great. I spent most of work yesterday talking with Dave V about church, it was sweet. It is nice to know people who are so passionate about figuring out what it means to be a christian.
Fr. Michael came over today to talk about the nature of the church, visible vs. invisible, and about why we don't take communion outside of orthodoxy. they are related, and it was good to hear it articulated again, because I know I understand and accept it, but I can't explain it (sorry) I will try to sometime when I have energy.

Jessica and I talked about the conference that they are putting on, that girl is amazing, they are having a conference about the church and how to be the church in the changing cultural context we find ourselves in, and I almost told her that I didn't know how to give ideas because my church doesn't spend much time trying to figure out how to be, because we have been being the same forever, that we just keep on being. as well, the cultural context seems fairly well addressed, even though the culture of the church is foreign to many, it is not irrelevant, the way many other churches are. I think relevancy has less to do with musical style than a willingness to address life on every level. life is the what, and culture is the how. since the church address how to live on a level that subsedes ( I made a word apparently) culture, and yet is infused with it, I live within my culture as one who is aware of it, relevant to it, and yet set apart from it in the ways that matter. my ratty 'locks may look a certain way, but the important thing is what drives my decisions, not the decisions themselves, because if I have the right foundation, the actions will come, right? so, how to be the church? maybe the same way they have been forever, but that takes a lot of time, time, time (thanks again tom waits)

which is one way the church is counter-cultural ( oh so cliche) society is all about instant coffee, and we brew it over years.

oh well. if she never becomes orthodox, she still beams beautiful light out of her eyes, kind of like phil, its too much to describe, too sacred to write about.



today, I went to anti-corporate mecca. adbusters. it was awesome.

on saturday I was in seattle with Jessica. it was beautiful, sunny, hot, and the weather was nice too. we had iced espresso and sat on a blanket by green lake, talking, laughing, smiling, staring.

no more sitting waiting wishing.



baptism, august 14th. come one, come all. st herman's.

goodnight friends, here are my thoughts o the day.

I guess the main difference is that my first understanding of what confession was was a "this is what I did, please excuse me" in the judicial sense, instead it seems to be a "this is who I am, and trusting the you are about to accept me as united to you wholly in holiness because of your blood which I will take into my body and soul, you need to know who I am, I need to be open, so I know you are accepting me fully in my complete lack of worthiness, that you love me with the full knowledge of my ability to sin, with the knowledge that I have rejected you in the past, I am sorry, I exist in a state of sorrow over the hurt I have caused you, and I want to think differently because I know your love, and how it changes and will change me into one who exists towards you." again, or something like that.



you know, when I am hyper, and I rant about life being beautiful.

well, I am finally having one of those days. fubar. just about everything that is good is momentarily in question. almost.

I don't have a computer. so these posts are few and far between.


hello all you


coming soon to a blog near you. more stuff, more details. life is wonderful. I am back from oregon sort of, hangin with tom and christine sine. google them for more info. mustard seeds.

and travelling with Jessica is awesome.


not alone

yes. it is nice to have grown up a bit. It was great to be in PG for a great wedding.

we had fun, I won poker.

now I am in seattle with a most amazing woman. I cannot spill onto the web too much, so ask me for details if you like. see you later.a